I have far too many concepts on my mind to write anything with any sort of direction right now. I feel like I am at another one of those points where life is forcing me to change, and of course, I am trying my best to resist. On top of that, I am still trying to focus my concern for others on to more concerns about myself. I suppose life is also trying to show me in many different ways that I should be more concerned for myself. It is very difficult to not look back on the more recent past and think about how you would like things to just be that way again. I think it is a natural instinct to think that way but, obviously not a healthy one.
I think about the way other people treat one another, and how I have been treated by others. I wonder if I act that way towards people? I am sure we all have our moments. Really makes me think about how I treat my loved ones. I hope I am able to show them how much they mean to me. I hope they know enough that when I have a moment that is less then great, that they never even doubt how much I care.
Actions speak louder then words, and accepting that can be very hard. I know in time everything will feel right and whole. For now, I will just try to accept the fact that things are changing. Eventually I am sure I will see it is all for the best...
It is I, your loyal fan again leaving a note so you know your blog is read. I know you do not write to be read, but I read because you write. It is good to know that there is someone out there with whom I can relate, even if it is only on certain topics.
ReplyDeleteYou sound so much like me. There are many times I have been forced to change in life, and although change is not always bad, it's hard to see it as anything but such in the beginning. While change happening around you can be scary because you have little control over it, change happening within you can be exciting, and that's the kind of I change I see happening. Follow your instinct; we all have those little voices for a reason.
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